I found out I am totally dependent for my sense of identity on the outcome of my achievements. Many years ago it was my work as a bassoonist in a top class classical orchestra. At the birth of my first child I was struck by insomnia and I had to work out the problem. I found [...]
Throughout the majority of my life I had an “indirect” relationship with myself. An indirect relationship is where you experience your Self through achievements, e.g. conditions to fulfill, tasks to complete, or trying to be perfect. I am currently working on having a “direct” relationship with myself. Recently I had awareness of this while driving [...]
The allegory of The Castle of Enmeshment Far away, in a country hidden in a valley covered by fog, lies a village called Struggletown. It’s a village like any other and most villagers live a reasonably happy life: they work, do what needs to be done and on the weekends they usually find small pockets [...]
Today, as I was struggling for peace of mind and tranquility in my soul by trying to find a balance between ‘me doing’ and ‘me being’, I thought how wonderful it would be if I were strong enough to stand up against the drive that keeps me in the ’doing’ mode most of the day. [...]
Insomnia can screw up a lot but it is also a great way to get to your real self (I experienced). As such it is a blessing disguised as a curse….I have a long history of “perceived Loss/Lack of Sense of Self if not professionally active”, to the point of 20 years of insomnia. Not [...]
Have you ever noticed that you enjoy having power over others? Good willing people are doing their very best to ban from the earth cruel behavior by political decision making and setting up legislations that ensure that Human Rights aren’t being infringed. We are all horrified by the stories of atrocities. But is being horrified [...]
